How I feel in FL

My order from GNC arrived!

We have decided to try some other products outside of Herbalife for our diet to see if we can improve our results. Keep the body guessing! Who knows if its a good idea or not, but I'm going for it. I bought Aloe vitamins and some supplement called CLA. Here is praying it keeps me pooping and losing the pounds. Momma wants a flat stomach for the first time in her life.

I mean, I'm tired of being fat. I have always been chubby at the least. When I was a little kid, I was always chunkier than most, not everyone, but most. It continued into being a teen, but some how, by the grace of God, I developed a nice enough ass and a great sense of humor and managed to maintain luck with the boys and stayed pretty popular. I wasn't prom queen, but taking pictures for the yearbook left me among the skinny and pretty.

I'm ready to not be fat! After taking my new pills for 1 day, I dropped 3 pounds! Nuts. I have a concert that I am going to in November and the goal is to fit nicely into a sexy outfit.

NOT ENOUGH TIME!

AHHH.

Forever Young.

Today marks 1 year since my husbands best friend passed away. We were friends before I started popping out babies, but once the kids came around, we didn't see him much. I don't know if that makes it better or worse for my husband. The last time I saw him, it was just after we had been fighting. He told me I had to hug him and forgive him. We hugged, shared a drink and then parted ways.

I'll never see him again.

I miss you, Luke. Until we fight again.

What are the rules to partying as a parent?

Ok. So I am well aware you don't party with your kids, but if you do be responsible. Don't get hammered. Don't drink until you are crawling with your baby. I get all that, but where does the line get drawn when the kids are away? Do parents ever get to put down the heavy burden and let loose without feeling like they are "too old" or that "I'm a mom, I cannot be seen doing this"?

My best friend and her husband have offered to buy concert tickets for my husband and I (incredible lifelong friends who are not just buying tickets BUT BOTTLE SERVICE). I am having an incredibly hard time accepting this generous gift and more importantly I'm struggling with if I am able to enjoy going out for weekend long concerts anymore. It feels so selfish.   I mean going to the gym for an hour and a half daily is all I can steal for myself already feels like I am taking from precious family time. I am constantly feeling like I am letting my husband down by not having the laundry folded the same day as it is washed because I am off pumping iron.

Is there ever a moment that you don't have to feel guilty as a mom? My husband is blissful in knowing he is a wonderful dad. I am constantly wondering if I am going to screw up and ruin my babies.

Oi. If only I could set my brain to dad mode and enjoy myself when a free, fun event comes to town.

#drunkmommy

50 lb mark

I did it. I reached my first goal. I lost 50 lbs! I want to celebrate with half a handle of whiskey and some pizza, but I may settle for a cocktail since its Thirsty Thursday.

My daughter is taking more and more steps everyday. She is reminding me that she turns 1 in a couple short months. How do moms deal when they are officially over the infant stage? My quarter-life crisis has me working my ass literally off, but I sometimes feel that the time I spend at the gym or doing research on healthy recipes has taken what time I used to spend nursing her. I see her holding her bottle, all independent, slowly turning into a toddler. As I lose the chunky butt cheeks, she will start to lose the chubby cheeks I love to kiss on that sweet baby face. WHYYYY?

Here is hoping that 50 lbs less of me will help me chase that soon to be toddler and make up for all the time I am using to get healthy now.

Lazy mommy

I let my laziness reach a new level today. I purchased shoes for my son that can be worn in both the water and are also sneakers. My reason? I DON'T HAVE TO FIND SOCKS FOR HIM TO WEAR WITH IT!

Thankfully my daughter hates socks and she doesn't wear sneakers (she doesn't walk), but my son required me to search for those tiny pieces of material that get lost the second I remove the tag from the store. We live in FL and if it were safe for him to run around in flip flops, we wouldn't be having this problem, but alas I have to protect those little feet of his. Do you realize how amazing Stride Rite is? My kids always walked earlier and could walk better in shoes than all my other girlfriends babies.

So tomorrow we are off to the park that has a splash pad because he can now go back and forth from the playground to the pad. I mean, I had to make sure that we use it for their intended purpose on their first time out.

Lazy mommy win.